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She stands there. Knees locked and thoughts running. As the lives pass by her, she wonders what it is like to have that freedom. The walls that surround her, allow her to watch, but she is unable to move. She sees the people all around, walking by her and not even noticing. She knows she can see them, but can they see her? She can feel the eyes of people looking but knows she is not seen. Not touched. What did she do? What is it that put her here? She is bewildered by what is happening and cannot wrap her thoughts around it. All she did was do what she thought was the right thing and what she felt she was suppose to. Was she wrong? Is this the sacrifice it would bring? She wonders if anyone will ever look twice. She wants the walls gone. She wants to be able to walk around with the confidence of those she sees. Yet in the same thoughts of wishing, she knows she won’t settle, even if she wanted to. She knows the walls are hard to climb- she knows that there is a reason for them.... “After he had patiently endured, he obtained the promise.”

Wait.
There it was. It didn’t hold long, but it was there.

He walks by her, again. Everyday it gets harder. He sees her and knows that she is different. He knows that there is something about her that no one else has. He is drawn to her in a way he doesn’t understand and can’t explain. The only way he knows how to deal with it is to turn the other way. He avoids her and tries to keep his distance, yet he can’t take take his focus off of her. He cries out to God to intervene and do something about what is going on inside him. Yet it just grows deeper. Does she even notice him? He looks up at her again, knowing that the walls that surround her aren’t meant to be conquered over and over. But one time. If he is to have her, he is to fight for her. The walls are intimidating, and make her seem untouchable. It seems too narrow. Can he do it? Is he worth it? But she is. She looks his way... “enter by the narrow gate...”

Wait.
There it was. It didn’t hold long, but it was there.