I was recently reminded that there is always “the day before.” The day before you get married. The day before you have your first child. The day before the towers fell. The day before you get let go from your job. The day before you find out you have to move. When we look back on events that altered our lives, we always remember the day before.
Saturday was my families “day before.” We were all scattered over town. Watching football, attending the women's retreat. Studying for school or just relaxing and enjoying the beautiful saturday. Then sunday came.
No one ever wakes up in the morning knowing what the day will bring. We might have a plan in our calendars. Meetings might be scheduled and appointments might have been made. But ultimately- if something is thrown our way, we have to stop and change our minds and priorities. We must alter our lives. Yesterday was that day for my family.
As I was rushing to the emergency room after church, I kept thinking “I did not wake up expecting this.” But then again, does anyone? Does anyone wake up expecting their families roots to be shaken? Does anyone expect their uncle, brother, father, husband to be suddenly gone? As we sat in the waiting room, trying to comfort as the shock was still settling in, i just kept thinking “this is a dream.” I tried to put myself in everyone’s shoes: my mom lost her brother. My aunt lost her husband. My cousins lost their daddy. The thoughts flooded my heart as it broke.
Saturday was “the day before.” Today is the day after. Tomorrow is the next day. And Wednesday is going to come as well. Soon, I pray, we will not be thinking of the day before, but more of the tomorrow. Cause with every sunset there is a sunrise, and we will rise.
As I walk through heavens gates as the melodies fill my ears. I fall to my knees. The overwhelming peace take hold of my heart as I try and bow to You. My hands reach to You but it will never be as I cannot obtain who You are. Yet Your glory fills the heavens as I remain in awe of Your presence. I desire to praise Your name. "Holy Holy Holy. Is the Lord God Almighty. Who was and is and is to come."